Delusional

How can someone truly reach me
When I need my self-control
When life shows me pain or passion
I hide my desire to hide for it all

When I try to reject my sadness
I wish my pain didn't show
I'm inside this delusional bubble
Who are you? I don't know

Want to get rid of my black thoughs
I need to free this restless mind
Want to empower my decisions
Isn't my heart still always right?

I don't want to make me feel
Free from darkness, free from light
I'll be silent now, watch myself inside
Untill I care for whatever is real

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